I don't like to be busy. I LOVE to get out of the house each day but nothing stresses me out more than having a full calendar when I don't have at least one night where I know my whole family will be able to enjoy each others company. I know this about myself, and I joke that I have a fear of commitment because I hate booking things. When the day comes for said commitment all I want to do is sit and watch Netflix with my husband, or go on a walk with my kids. Clearly, I have issues. That 'maybe' button on electronic RSVP's was made for people like me. "Are you coming to the party?""maybe" if I feel like it that day or something better doesn't come up - seriously, what is wrong with me?
My desire to have community conflicts with that desire to get things done. But
What is SO cool about this, is when you pray and ask God to help you see the needs around you He delivers. So I recently prayed (like I have in the past) to be nudged, for the Holy Spirit to help me see where I can be helping those around me. Help me prioritize, if you will, what really needs to get done. Can I just say, when you listen to those nudges, VERY rarely do things go wrong? In my experience I am yet to be nothing but overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by how God is working all around me.
My mom read an excerpt from a book and I know I'm going to misquote it but it said something along this:
Listen to your nudges. Say you are nudged to make a pound cake for a friend. Make it. What if you make that pound cake and deliver it to your friend and she isn't have a rough day after all?
And THEN your friend tells you she is no longer eating sugar.
You can sit in your car and laugh with God about it and enjoy every bite of that pound cake. No reason to fret if things don't go as planned.
What if YOU don't listen to those nudges though friends? The majority of the time I have listened, something miraculous has happened. I've had a few flops, where I just had to sit back and laugh. But nothing feels worse then not listening to 'the nudge' and wondering 'what if?'
'What is my calling? What is your will for my life? Where is my community?'
Are you so focused on what you should be doing, your endless lists, comparing your life to other people's that you forget to take action?
